Forgive me for being alone.

I've never been more tired of
couples in my life. It feels like
I'm the only one who doesn't have
somebody worth while to attach
myself to. I have no problem with
my friends being happy. Good for you.
I'm happy for you. Really. But when
I get left out of things PURELY because
I don't have a boyfriend to go on your
little double dates with, it PISSES me off.
Remember when we used to say
that no boy will ever come between us?
Because I remember. Do you?
I'm sorry I choose the wrong ones and
they never stay. I'm sorry that the good,
sweethearted ones that I choose don't
fucking want me. I don't feel like it's my
fault that I'm completely alone.
But you're doing a hell of a job with
making me feel even more entirely
isolated than was EVER necessary.
And what of the ones that I've fallen
for before and can't seem to get over no
matter how hard I truly try? Thank you
for telling me all about her. Thank you for
making sure I know how happy you are
in your new fantastic relationship. Yes.
Thank you for that. It's never felt
so great to be alone. I appreciate the
lengths you'll go to to make sure that I'm
aware of how much you don't want me.
Rub it in.
I appreciate that.
I do.



I wrote songs last night.
Yeah, multiple.
I'll post them in a bit.