I Told You.

I told you I was falling for you.
I went against my better judgement,
and my shaking palm grasped your
warm, steady palm, and I whispered
to you:

"I'm falling for you. And.. and I'm not
afraid of it. Because I know that I don't
need to be. It's right. It's supposed to
happen. It feels good to fall for you."

And you know what?
You squeezed my hand
and you pulled me in close
and you whispered to me:

"I just got butterflies."

And that
is how I know
that my own little
planets have finally
aligned.

Everyone knows the feeling...

I've never fallen so fast.
The colors speed by me in a
rapid display of smears and
wisps. My hair is a jungle
because of the winds and
the breeze isn't as bitter
cold as you'd have imagined.
It's a warming sensation that
slips between your skins and
nestles into your bones. I've
never expected it to happen
this fast. I've never expected
that I'd be lifted from the
ground by a single feeling,
a single sensation,
a single flutter in my heart
and stomach.
I'm not sure that I ever
really truly believed in it.
But you made me believe.
You made me feel the
things I never thought I
truly deserved. But you;
You show me how much
I truly do deserve this.
You show me how
wonderful it all can be
and how wonderful
all of this could be.
Everything.
You make everything
better. You make
everything amazing.

"I don’t know but I
think I may be falling
for you. Dropping so
quickly.. maybe I should
keep this to myself .
Waiting ’til I know you
better... I am trying
not to tell you but
I want to."

I think Garth Brooks may
have been on to something
when he imbedded into my
mind that some of God's
greatest gifts are unanswered
prayers. And I'm sure you know
how I feel about God and his
higher beings of angels...
But maybe my 11:11 wishes
and the aching need that has
consumed me for the last year
to just be loved and to feel
what I've never felt before..
maybe that need finally
disappeared. And I realized
the difference between a
want and a need and I told
myself that if I wasn't looking,
it'd tap me on the shoulder.
And you did.
You most certainly did...

Goosebumps and Butterflies

I don't even feel the scars.
I don't feel the stiches or any
missing pieces at all.
Everything disappeared with
15 words:

"I will never lie to you and I will
never do anything to hurt you,"

I could stare into your shit
brown eyes and hear you
repeat those words to me as
many times as necessary..

Please don't break me.

I haven't felt this good

In so long.
Which is funny, because
I have a cold from Hell.
BUT... It seems like the last
year of absolute shit
is finally falling back into
place. I haven't had this
much hope in ages. The
feelings are finally returned,
and they're returned with
the same intensity that I've
given. This is all I've been
asking for. Maybe, because
I've been bitter about not
receiving this for so long,
I'll appreciate it more. I'll
embrace it more. Murphy.
Thank you.
For once, the light at the end
of the tunnel is not a train.
It is not a figment of my
imagination.
It's just... you.

Welcome back to the show, Optimism.

No arms have ever felt safer.
I'm getting my hopes up, but I
believe in you and I believe in
this. I believe that this could be
what I've been waiting for and
hoping for and losing faith in.
You are faith. You are a long
since lost heart beat. You're
better than I'd hoped for.
Hope. You're hope. I know
and realize how perfect
this could be.. Everyone
sees it. Tell me you see it.
Everything happens for a reason.
Tell me I'm right. Tell
me that it meant to you
what it means to me and
that I'm not crazy. That
this is good karma coming
back to kiss me on the mouth
and push me in the direction
I've never had the courage to
take. You could be the one that
doesn't end in heartache.
Tell me you see it.